Internal Bleeding II

Now that the candles are extinguished
and my room is left in the dark
now that you see beyond my surface
where there're good things and I shine

Do you still think that I'm special?
Would you even hold my hand?
Will you caress me in my nightmares,
saying "everything's all right"?

Though I don't believe in fate
you might've appeared a second late
I am dark, and dark's my sorrow
if you look inside, you might find horror

For I love the ghastly whispers
that keep crawling through my veins
and attract me to the abyss
where again I will submerge

But will you heal me with a kiss?
if begone, will I be missed?
and if I've fallen, thrown a rope?
Is it ok to even hope?

I'm so scared, I'm terrified,
I don't feel I could defy
the Allmighty forces I must fight
when it's me who's fighting for both sides.